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Life is honestly too short to waste away. No one knows for sure how long they'll live. No one. Of course, we want to live a long time, I am sure, if we live our life 'right'. What is 'right' or 'wrong' is something you decide for yourself. If I am not happy, things are not going right for me. I used to be really--really down on my self-- a lot. Now, not so much. I find myself much more happier and sucessful now. I smile. But I also think a lot more and, well, it depends if that is a good thing or not. Yes, a good thing, but sometimes I can still bring myself down.

Honestly, what do we have to live for? We are humans and we are killing planet Earth. Disgrace. We are human and we are discovering unimaginable things in life. We strive to succeed, but for what? We all die in the end. Yes, but, it is what we made out life worthwhile before we die. Dieing, well, if you look at it and lived a good life, is not a big deal. You were born. You grew. And grew. You hopefully learned. You hopefully made a postive impact. You were hopefully happy. Of course, there are those speed bumps, too. Small things. Big things. We all have to keep going--or not. But most of us find no other choice but to move on, even if it is the hardest thing we have ever encountered, like someone else's death that had not yet lived their life to their full potential.

We, as a human race, want to live, for the most part. We, as a human race, kill eachother. Purposly. Accidently. Whichever.

What does it really mean to die? I don't know. I don't want to think about death too much. I don't want to die yet; I have many years ahead of mean I plan on spending wisely. Though, I just don't know exactly what I am going to do with myself--yet. Things always change. It is inevitable. Get used to it. It's hard, I know, trust me.

I know what is like to loose people though, in many ways. I lost my beloved grandma last March. It was very, very hard for me being my first big death in my family. I also lost 'friends'. They move, change, things happen. I know. Don't be upset. Perhaps they just weren't meant to make it into your hopefully awesome life. Their loss.

What about people we don't want to loose? People we are very fearful of loosing. If it is someone you love, spend your time with them. Take your chances. Regret nothing if you enjoyed yourself. You wasted nothing. It is so simple to loose them. It is scary. And we recieve many wake up calls. Listen to those calls carefully. Once you loose someone, you can't get them back. Even if you know you will end up loosing them to death in the some near future, spend your time with them. Make a difference. Make someone smile. Make someone and yourself happy. The Pursuit Of Happiness. Right? Like they said, you have to work for happiness, it is not just handed to you. Well what kind of thing is that? Logic. You really don't have to work for happiness, you just have to work your mind to accept it. Enjoy the small things in life. There are too many big things to always have to worry about it, small things that can make you smile are the best and stick with you. Not saying big happy things aren't bad--they're great too.

What would you do if today was your last day? Would you want to go back, hug that stranger, smile at that stranger, call an old friend, eat that cookie that was calling your name, get up the nerve to call that special someone? If the world was going to end tomorrow I would not be panicing. Up to this point in life, I've had a good ride. There are still many things I want to do before I die. But if I knew the world was going to end, sure, I'd still do a few things that would make me smile--along with other people. But like I said, we never know when that is going to be, right? So live like everyday is your last. Yeah, I know that is very cliche, but how true is it? Very. Trust me, you'd regret it if you didn't have a chance to do all the little things to build yourself up. Hey, even start an early Bucket List. I don't know. Whatever makes you happy.

Recently, I've had a few wake up calls.

My friend Amanda texts me at 11 a.m during school. I sneek and read the text. I am devastated. Her 18 year old sister was hit by a car--twice. TWICE. The first guy stopped and was trying to clear away traffic since when they hit her, she flew into the street. The second hit her--drove off. How is she? She is in critical condition as of now. They removed a part of her skull. Eighteen. Enganged. Walking down the street with her fiance. Everything can change so quickly. Sometime we just can't control things. We can somewhat prepare ourselves, but we can never be fully prepared for what happens down the road. he poor guy blames himself. Doctors say she has a poor chance. Though, she can move slighty, and seems to hear them. She was going to get married and start a life. What horrible thing did she ever do to deserve that? Nothing. Nothing at all. Life cruel? Yeah. But. But what? But it is a wakeup call. Yes, but why her? It's not fair. Of course it is not. Why does it happen? I don't know. But it makes up cherrish our life and our loved ones a little more, doesn't it?

A friend of mine, an hour ago, posted on her status, "Life is too complicated. Wish it wasn't."

I replied:

Life is simple. We just make it hard on ourselves whether we mean to or not. It's a choice to live a happy, easy going life, but may take a lot to stop how you're living now. You know me. I always used to be really emotionally down a lot. Well, maybe you didn't know all of it, but some people did, and well, I certainly did. THen I choice to be happy and appreciate the little things in life. WE truely don't know when our last day, or someone's last day, or what is going on in someone else's life. Take possibilities into account and try to treat you and everyone else good.

I guess that is all I really wanted to say. Sorry if I depressed you or scared you. Just things on my mind and all.

"In hopes of reaching the moon does man fail to see the flowers blossom at their feet." - Albert Sweitzer

Have a nice day/life.

Lisa